Peacatry

Miss U

2008-10-22T10:03:00.001+08:00

i'm missing my baby.

Looking Forward To

2008-10-04T23:09:00.004+08:00

My friend Moo is going to send me a book (re: midlife crisis).

I am in high hope that it wouldn't take him eternity before he finds time to mail me the stuff.

I'm kinda excited.

Stupid For You

2008-10-04T11:36:00.000+08:00

It’s not everday
that I find a person quite like you
perfect every way
I finally found the nerve to confess that it’s you - that I want
I don’t care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you !
put aside, all my pride
so don’t keep me hanging here
cause this girl is falling stupid for you..
stupid for you..

The proper thing to do
is for me to act like a lady and wait
for you to make the first move
but I don’t think you’re getting the point
that it’s you - that I want
I don’t care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
put aside, all my pride
so don’t keep me waiting here
cause this girl is falling stupid for you!
oh, oh stupid for you

Why’s it always feel like I am
chasing love when nothing’s there
and here I go just making the same mistake…

I’ve fallen stupid for you

Simply A Jackass

2008-09-28T10:58:00.004+08:00

What he said to me yesterday is gross; I find his statement so strong that it is kind of, like it can blow the lid off the can.

Unfortunately, he whacked me seriously that I suddenly feel like I was shrinking in pain for he hurt me big time. That was not a joke I suppose.

Well, some men are simply jackass and they are not worthy of my respect. I admit for so many reasons I have a high regard on him and my admiration is not manufactured for its real. But sad to say that approbation is starting to wane now. I can't help it.

I Like The Pain

2008-09-27T20:08:00.002+08:00

The squeeze inside my heart this morning ... I can still feel it until now.

Sometimes I need this kind of hurting for this give me big valid reason to keep distance away from him. I know that I don't deserve this kind of pain, but I welcome this. Funny because I am forced to like the pain.

I been wanting this to happen for this is one way for me to stop for being too kind. I just need to stop being too lenient.

Proud

2008-09-08T07:39:00.002+08:00

In a world where a lot of people settle for the ordinary , he is an exceptional person. He got his own sense of self. He has the kind of integrity others can admire and respect.

In a world where a lot of people take more than they give, he's a caring person. And when he say he care, it's not just talk... he mean it.

He is willing to reach out and do his best for others. He is honest and gentle, yet he's strong in all the ways that really matter.

In a world where a lot of people don't have anyone they can depend on at anytime, I can say that I feel really lucky to have him.

I want him to know how proud I am that he is part of my life.

Restless

2008-09-03T11:15:00.000+08:00

Feeling’ blue and restless since the other day.

Yesterday early morning, I get up and go, tried so hard to kick out the lethargic feeling that swallowing me.

I tried so hard… attempted to find a soul who’s not been battered but can’t find available friend who feels at ease. No, am not PMS-ing.

No matter how much I put on, I just cannot pull myself out of this black hole.

But it’s alright…it’s alright. I’m just weary to my bones.

Runaway

2008-08-22T13:43:00.002+08:00

This is the first song that I listened upon waking up this early morning and this reminds me of you.

Thank you very much for the inspiration.

Listen to this.

As Long As We Do

2008-08-19T09:25:00.000+08:00

When life hasn't been playing fair and you just need to know that someone understands what you're going through...I will be here for you.

When life is hard, you will always have a soft and caring place to come to. You can always share your thoughts with me, and you can rest assured that you will always be one of the most important people in my world.

I want you to know that somebody does care - i do. Even when it seems like no one is there for you - I am. For the times when you feel like nobody will catch you if you fall, I want you to remember - I will.

If you have times when your spirits are down and you just want to have a smiling face around you to remind you that it's going to be okay - I'll be your side.

With me, you'll never have to hide your emotions. When things come up that you can't handle alone, we can always tackle them... together.

It doesn't matter whether anyone else understands that or not... as long as we do.

Muted Days

2008-07-02T07:18:00.004+08:00

days are too busy, hours are too few, seconds are too fast, but there is always a time for me to say hello to him.

you see, in this world of odds and ends, he is the last person to inhabit my thoughts at night and the first name that wake me up in the morning. he is funny in a gawky, clownish kind of way. how uncontrollable his passions are! will i understand the crazy things he does?

i kept his sleepy kisses given at night. i have his smile etched in my soul. i have his laughter and i will never let it go.

i’m not very good with words. i can only wish that he felt what i couldn’t say. i would like to listen not only to what he is saying but to what he is not saying or trying to say but cannot.i have a rather odd feeling that the more i see him the more i like him, and the more i like him, the more i want to show him things and get his reactions.

right now i just want someone i can get along with, someone fun to be around. someone i can laugh with and hang out with, someone like him.

When They Fly Away

2008-03-20T09:19:00.000+08:00

Some friends are meant to be caged, their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up - does rejoice.

I guess I just miss my friend.

Too Easy, Too Soon

2008-03-05T08:51:00.000+08:00

I had no idea how easy he would be to talk to, and I never imagined that our early conversations would grow into such a strong friendship.

I never suspected that we would discover so many common interests, or that I could ever enjoy simple pleasures as much as when they are shared with him.

I never thought we've so many warm and happy times together, or that his compassion would help so much to ease me through the rougher times.

I didn't expect to feel so soon as though I'd known him forever, or to trust him so easily with my secrets and deepest feelings.

I never thought your his could make such a difference, that your encouragement would bring my dreams closer, make my successes sweeter and my losses easier to accept.

I never imagined that I would grow to want, to need, and to love him so much.

When you first came into my life, I never dreamed you'd soon be someone whom I couldn't live without.

I Will Not Get Tired Of You

2008-02-25T08:22:00.001+08:00

I think I could be with him almost all the time and not get tired of his company. He got a wonderful way of making time spent with him so different... more meaningful somehow.

I know that no matter what kind of mood I'm in, being with him makes everything better.

I wonder how I ever get along without him.

Even Though We're Opposite

2008-02-22T14:31:00.001+08:00

We weren't exactly the best of friends. We had our share of arguments. We looked totally in opposite directions.

He see things that way. I see things this way, and neither wanted to give in. I think he's too strict and he think I'm too dumb.

I often ask myself why we're like that and you know what I've come to realize? It's because we're so much alike, full of wit and independence.

Wandering Thoughts

2008-02-02T07:21:00.001+08:00

I find him on my mind more often than any other thoughts. Sometimes I bring him there purposely. Well, just to console me or to warm me or just to make my day a little brighter.

But so often he surprise me... because he freely find his own way into my thoughts. There are times that when I awaken, I realize what a tender part of my dreams he had been.

And on into the day, whenever a peaceful moment seems to come my way and my imagination is free to run, it takes me running into his arms and allows me to linger there... knowing there's nothing I'd rather do.

I know that my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart... because whenever they wander, they always take me to him.

I Wasn't Even Looking

2008-01-25T07:02:00.000+08:00

He were there at just the right time, in just the right place. And the funny part is, I wasn't even looking.

But If i had been, I would have been looking for someone just like him, someone with eyes like his that look into mine to find the meaning behind what words can't always say.

I would have been looking for someone with a sense of humor like his, one that can lift me up out of a blue mood, one that laughs at my stories.

I wasn't even looking, but there he was, with strong arms to hold me close when I needed it, with broad shoulders for me to cry on, and a bright smile that seemed to say "welcome home" to a place I didn't even know I was going, a place I am so grateful to have found.

All I Want

2008-01-21T07:13:00.000+08:00

All I want is someone to talk to, someone with whom I can share my inner feelings and my fondest dreams, never fearing disapproval or rejection.

All I want is a hand to hold, a hand that can gently cradle whether conversation rolls or whether silence fill the airs; a hand that can hold on to tightly whether out of nervousness or out of joy.

All I want is a pair of eyes to gaze into: eyes that will see my love grow, eyes that will sense the warmth in my smile, eyes that will welcome the sight of me.

All I want is for someone to be able to find these things in me. All I want is for someone to love me, and for that someone who loves me to be someone I love. All I want is Him.

In My Dreams

2007-12-02T06:48:00.001+08:00

I guess he could say that in some ways, I have always loved him. That doesn't sound right i know, because I have not always known him, but I've always known certain qualities that more important to me, and in my mind and heart, I have always carried an image, a fantasy, a wish, I guess, of a wonderful person I could love totally.

He had given me what I have always wished for: fun and laughter, concern and understanding, a friend to depend on, a lover to cherish, a partner in everything I do.

Thinking about him - how he make me feel, how i feel about him and all that he is - I realize that all my life, I have always loved him in my dreams.

Now that he come out of my dreams and into my life, I still can't tell him that I have always loved him and that I always will.

Even Though

2007-11-05T02:03:00.001+08:00

We never have the time to have long talks. We hardly had chance for a few laughs but even though our worlds don't always meet, remember that i will always be the same person you used to know.

Someday He Will Forget About Me

2007-10-29T23:15:00.001+08:00

I know that someday he will forget me, about me, my name, my voice, who i am and who i am to him. But even if he forget about me, everything about me, i just want him to know that I am more than glad that I have known someone like him.

Remembering our Dead

2007-10-28T20:16:00.001+08:00

I am sure everyone of us will have someone we love to remember on All Soul’s Day. Our families and friends go to visit our departed loved ones in their resting places. This year many of us are anticipating a really long weekend with November 1 and 2 falling being Thursday and Friday. We have time to go out of town, return to our home provinces and join our families in visiting our loved ones. The cemeteries that are usually quiet becomes turns into a noisy and congested place. It becomes more a celebration of the living rather than the silent commemoration of the dead.

I do not really know how nor why the days for the remembrance of our dead have been associated with horror, ghosts, vampires and the netherworld, things that are not even remotely connected with the remembrance of our loved ones who have passed away. Maybe this occasion have been associated with other cultural practices somewhere along its long history. Maybe it is because it is associated with death. Halloween is the popular name for this. So, November 1 and 2 have two faces – one that is the celebration of our love and devotion to our dead loved ones and a Halloween celebration that deals more with fears, ghosts and spirits.

I would rather spend these days to remember my loved ones who have gone ahead of me. I would rather remember them with the people whose lives they have touched too. I will pause to pray for them, I will try to remember the times when they were still here by my side.

Remembering our dead will remind us of our own mortality. Celebrating their lives even after they have died will remind us that there is still life to be lived ahead of us. For me, All Souls Day is a celebration of life – the life that our loved ones lived and the lives of those they have touched. The commemoration of the dead is a celebration of LIFE.

How did HE know?

2007-10-06T13:55:00.001+08:00

I can't find a reason why God gave him to me. Why I crossed his path. But that is not the question to be asked. Maybe the question is...

How did God know that I'd be happy to have someone like him?

Not The Best

2007-10-03T23:52:00.001+08:00

I may not be the "perfect person" that he is looking for...not even the "best" among them all. But surely I am a person who will always "care for him" my friend, whoever you are.

Mimosa Leisure Estate

2007-06-13T13:02:00.001+08:00

Went to Clark Field at Angeles, Pampanga with my brother Evan.

And this is what Evan treated me for lunch.

Lunch Buffet: $11 per person (tax not included). And I was thinking..."tsk, tsk,tsk... the amount could be my one-week marketing budget na."

Theo

2007-06-11T19:18:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday THEO!

My nephew THEO at Max's Restaurant-Tiendesitas

stuffs from new york

2007-05-26T16:42:00.002+08:00

I finally received the OLD NAVY shirts, blouses and dress and other stuffs that my chat buddy Erwin of New York, USA sent me care of my brother Evan. The shirts are so cool. Thanks Erwin for the generosity.

choco crinkles

2007-05-23T11:58:00.000+08:00

i always wanted my daughter Keziah to learn and develop the interest on how to cook or bake at a very young age. if only money does not matter to me and is always available, i could have let her enrol to a cooking class so she can also be productive this summer. but since i have the knowledge in basic baking i decided to just expose her the skill by myself. i find Choco Crinkles as one of easiest and simplest cookies to bake as a start up. baking together is one of the best way also to bond with my daughter. Oh yes, we had fun really. Here's the ingredients:

1/2 cup oil

3/4 cup cocoa
2 cups sugar
4 eggs
2 tsp. vanilla
2 cups flour
2 tsp. baking powder
1/2 tsp. salt
1 cup powdered sugar

Mix oil, cocoa, and sugar. Blend in one egg at a time until well blended. Add vanilla. Stir flour, baking powder, and salt into oil mixture; chill several hours or overnight. Drop a teaspoon of dough into powdered sugar; roll and shape into a ball. Place 2 inches apart on greased cookie sheet. Bake 10 to 12 minutes at 350 degrees. DO NOT OVERBAKE! Makes 6 dozen.

morning exercise

2007-05-22T08:06:00.002+08:00

i feel i'm gaining weight and i'm determined (kuno) to shed some pounds. i woke up so early around 5:15 am. for the first time, i did a total of 32 minutes (yeah i had it timed) brisk walking from my house and suppose to be public market ang destination ko. di ko nga lang alam kung ilang kilometro ang binaybay ko. mahina ako sa math eh. lol. basta malayo talaga narating ko. wala akong plano na sumakay ng jeepney kaso umangal na mga munting paa ko bago ko narating ang palengke. hindi kasi tama ang suot kong sapatos... hindi sport shoes. no choice ako pero imbes na sumakay ng dyip....hehehe eto ang nakita ko - calesa!

whoa! the last time i rode a calesa siguro mga high school pa ako nun. na-excite ako bigla at sabay pinara ko si mamang kutsero. hehehe! sa five pesos fare eh narating ko po ang palengke namin. enjoy ang trip ko! sarap!

sunday bonding

2007-05-20T19:36:00.000+08:00

my sister millette called me inviting us to have lunch sa bahay nila. siempre go agad kami. libre lunch eh. hehehe! pero masarap kasi talaga yung kainan na may chikahan kahit hindi bongga ang food. kasama na siempre dun ang update ng mga showbiz chizmiz. parang get-together na rin namin kasi my niece-in-law Alona and her kids were there too. we stayed there til afternoon kasi hinintay pa namin kung ano ang ipapa-meryenda sa amin. kafal!

well... eto nilafang namin as merienda while watching The Buzz:

halo-halo

at siempre, uuwi ba naman ako sa bahay na walang dalang hiram na magazines? isa sa mga hilig ko ang magbasa ng glossy magazines.

hayss... isang linggo na naman ang lumipas.

Grow Old With You

2007-04-01T03:37:00.000+08:00

... dedicated to papa J.

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you.
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches.
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growin old with you.
I'll miss you, kiss you, give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you, feed you, and even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man who grows old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you, take your shoes off and rub your feet.
Need you, feed you, and when we play checkers i'll let you cheat.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the one who grows old with you.

Keziah's 11th Natal Day

2007-03-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

i wasn't able to take pics of my daughter's 11th birthday cake. there's no party... it's only us (kev, ziah, jinky and viel). together we share the food ... a platter of pancit canton, cake and ziah's fave fruit salad. Happy Birthday Keziah dear. I love u so much. Mwaah!

Kare-kare

2007-03-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

i haven't tried cooking kare-kare before. kare-kare is one of the favorite dish of my favorite guy, jojo. ganun yata talaga pag special sa yo ang tao eh gusto mo alamin ang halos lahat ng mga paborito din nya. that's why i've googled recipes of the said dish kasi gusto ko matutunan panu lutuin to.

since practice lang to... i substituted ox tail with pork liempo. with the help of Mama Sita's Kare-kare Peanut Sauce Mix. Voila! tagumpay ako. ang dali lang pala. hehehe. and in fairness, masarap sya ha.

Happy Birthday, son!

2007-02-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

Kevin's 16th birthday cake

2006-08-30T07:50:00.000+08:00

view from here of my tiny feet. lol.

tagal ko di nakapag-post dito sa blog ko a. inatake kasi ako ng sakit na walang gamot...yun ang katamaran. siguro di lang talaga din ako motivated.

What’s inside my kikay kit:

2006-07-19T17:03:00.000+08:00

* Pressed powder - i'm after of the mirror. i prefer to use loose powder at nilalagay ko dito sa compact. hehehe!
* Concealer stick – a must-have for me.
* Lip Gloss - minsan ayaw ko mag lipstick.
* Breath Strips – mabuti na yung may baon neto, baka may madaanang makahalikan sa kanto.
* Nivea Lip Balm - just to make my lips supple.
* Cheek Tint - para naman di ako magmukhang patay.
* Lip Shimmer
* Lipstick
* Eyebrow pencil
* Small bottle of perfume
* Equal Low-Calorie sweetener - huh! bakit napasama to sa kikay kit ko?

nAg kOLaPs aKo

2006-07-18T11:13:00.000+08:00

“1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10..11..12..13..14..15…whew!” "blag!"

bambi: “are u ok?”

me: “huh?”

waaaaaaaaaaah! Nag kolaps pala ako! Hahaha! Kaya pala laking-taka ko when I opened my eyes eh si Bambi (gym-owner and gym buddy ko) ang nasa harap ko. inalalayan ako ni Bambi umupo, inabutan ng tubig tsaka ko rin naramdaman yung kirot sa ulo ko at tumitindi ang sakit. Waaaaaaaah! May bukol ako. Nagpakuha agad si bambi ng ice cubes sa trainer ko kasi ang laki ng bukol sa right side ng ulo ko. At ang sakitttttt! Ganun pala ang mag pass-out. First time nangyari sa akin to. Huling exercise ko na sana yung knee raise ng program ko for today. I'm suppose to perform 3 sets of 15 repetition. Unang set pa lang natatapos ko then pagbaba ko ng paa ko eh nakaramdam ako na medyo nahilo ako then I went pfffft!

Nasa isang sulok ng gym yung knee raise abdominal equipment at medyo tago. Only 4 of us there sa gym kanina including the trainer at kaya pala napansin nila na nagkolaps ako kasi nasipa ko at natumba yung nakaparadang mountain bike ng trainer namin. At yun ang nakatawag ng pansin ng pagbagsak ko. Hindi ko na yun namalayan at di ko na rin alam na tumama pala ulo ko dun leg ng equipment. For one month and 2 weeks now lagi akong malakas at ganado sa gym workout ko. Bambi noticed that I’m really strong. Halos one minute or less lang ang pahinga ko in between each set of exercises. Palagay ko naging mahina resistensya ko kanina dahil dun sa kapapanood ko ng x-rated movies nung weekend. Joke!!!!!!! Hahaha!

Hindi uy, napuyat lang talaga ako nung Sunday nite. 3 am na ako nakatulog dahil sa black coffee na ininom ko. kaya nga rin nag absent na ako kahapon sa workout ko kasi alam ko na mahina ako at di kakayanin ng katawan ko. Ang akala ko naman eh ok na ako kanina at nakabawi na ng lakas dahil sa puyat. mali ako….at eto ang napala ko… B-U-K-O-L!

MuKhAnG - UsO

2006-07-15T06:32:00.000+08:00

Papunta ako sa gym kanina nang bigla akong kinalabit ng katabi kong pasahero sa jeep. She asked me kung may kakilala akong si chuva-chu-chu daw ang name. hehehe! Di ko kasi maalala kung anong apelyido nung kilala niya eh. I responded, negative. Then again she asked me kung ano daw apelyido ko. I answered politely naman, “Reyes” sabi ko. Pero medyo makulit at nagtanong pa ulit kung ano daw maiden name ko. Gusto ko sana sagutin na “isa po akong Zobel de Ayala dati”. Hehehe!

Eh kasi nga daw kamukha ko daw yung kakilala nya. Aysus! Na-clone na naman ako? So kung kakilala ko ba daw si ganito at si ganun. I’ve been asked that same question several number of times, more than I have fingers and toes. Kahit saan ako magpunta napapansin kong may nagtatanong sa akin ng ganun. Minsan tuloy napapaisip ako baka masyadong “common” ang itsura ko kaya dami ko kamukha. Pero hindi!! Uso lang talaga ang mukha ko! Kumbaga maihahalintulad na parang Levi’s jeans ang face ko. Mamahalin. Kahit saan at anong panahon , kupas man o hindi eh hindi talaga nawawala sa uso.

aNg tRaiNeR kOnG dYuTaY

2006-07-10T21:22:00.000+08:00

i think im starting my week right. had a great time working out sa gym kanina. sarap ng pawis ko na nalalasahan ko pa mula sa mukha ko and take note, hindi na maalat lasa ng pawis ko. hehehe! basang-basa shirt ko at pati yata panty ko pwede na pigain dahil sa sobrang basa ng pawis. tinanong ako ng trainer ko bakit wala ako nung friday.... na miss nya ata ako. hehehe! i go to gym every morning 5 times a week for more than a month na.

laki ng katawan ng fitness trainer namin kasi bodybuilder talaga sya. nope, hindi sya cutie pie ... at medyo duling pa nga eh :(

eto tanong ko, bakit yung mga bodybuilders ang liliit ng pototoy nila? kaya siguro hindi ako attracted sa mga malalaki ang katawan kasi parang dyutay eh. hahaha! minsan kasi sumasabay din yung trainer sa workout namin. at napansin ko... hindi naman sa sadyang tinitingnan ko (naks! kunyari pa) pero minsan di ko maiwasan mapansin talaga yung bumabakat sa kanila na kung anong laki katawan nila eh siyang liit din naman ng nakaumbok sa kanila.

easy-fix hair

2006-07-10T05:06:00.000+08:00

after my pc troubleshooting class, i went to a beauty saloon for a quick hair cut. ngayon may pagkapareho na kami ng buhok netong yoga girl image na nasa template ko. ok to, mas madali i-manage ang ganitong klaseng tabas ng buhok. kalahating baldeng tubig na panlinis ng ulo eh ayos na. hehehe! not to mention na tipid na naman ako sa shampoo at conditioner neto. yeebah!

LaFemme PoLvOrOn

2006-07-09T21:38:00.000+08:00

bilang isang singol na nanay na walang tinatanggap na pinansyal na suporta galing sa mga "chromosome donors" ko, di pwedeng hindi ako mag isip ng raket para sa ikabubuhay namin ng mga anak ko. for almost 5 years since i quit from my job as an employee ... ang paggawa na ng flavored-polvoron ang pinagkakakitaan ko. hehehe! ngayon ko lang naisip, almost 5-years na pala tong polvoron ko. hmmmn... pero bakit kaya isang kahig isang tuka pa rin kami? (esep-esep)... at bakit kaya di man lang ako nakabili ng lalaki? hmp! hahaha! minsan kasi parang palitaw tong polvoron ko eh -- lulubog, lilitaw. bah! hirap din mag negosyo noh. so, dun sa mga nagtatanong kung ano raket ko at nakaka-afford pa ako bumili ng prepaid internet cards ko para pang chat at pang blog ko eh eto po yung sagot.

i make almost a dozen assorted flavors of polvoron: cookies n' cream, cheese, pineapple, pandan, ube, graham, cashew, choco-chips, peanut, rice crispy and strawberry.

LaFemme ang label ng polvoron ko.

oN bEiNg sInGLe and HoRnY?

2006-07-07T18:51:00.000+08:00

been single-parent for 15 years now. at madugo talaga ang magpalaki ng mga anak ng walang katuwang sa buhay. madalas na problema ay kakapusan pagdating sa pera. madalas napapakamot na lang ako sa mga hindi dapat kamutin. di ko na dedetalye kung gaano kahirap din ang mangulila ng wala man lang nangangalabit o nangungulit na katabi ko sa pagtulog sa gabi. hehehe! kahit anong pa-seksi ko sa suot kong negligee o undies eh parang napupunta lang sa wala kasi wala man lang nag a-appreciate o kaya wala man lang akong mister na naglalaway sa suot kong laced string-panty na may butas o hiwa sa may pundilyo. hahahaha!

TeSt PoSt

2006-07-07T14:25:00.000+08:00

whew! finally nakakita rin ako ng blog template na nagustuhan ko. it took me a couple of days browsing for free templates. maraming magaganda kaso mas gusto ko yung simple lang ang dating at malamig sa mata ang kulay. thank u miss zoot sa libreng template na to. visit: http://www.zootsdesigns.com/